jamming myself
into a life not my own
my wooly lining
seeking sanctuary
inside his love-proof raincoat

yanking
swearing at
undissuaded zipper

disheartened when
his exterior is
disinclined
to budge
make space
for my inner self

disappointed when
his coat sheds love
like unwelcome raindrops

confused when he
wants to snuggle
feel my fleecy warmth
for passing comfort
though loath to join
permanently

thought
take my fleecy warmth
find coat seeking lining

or wait
until next season
when Macy’s features
feathery
frothy
flocculent
flamingo pink linings
on a rack of their own